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 Five things for today

One - This semester's CS class is going to be awesome. Not only am I taking it with one of my BFFs, but also our professor is fantastically sarcastic with an engaging teaching style.

Two - I listen to more non-fiction books and I read more fiction. Part of this is because of the Great Courses series on Audible. Part of this is that if I actually have time to sit down and read, I usually want to escape. But right now I'm reading "The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F*ck". It's KonMari for the soul. I need this.

Three - Inauguration Day. Oh gods. I need to call my senators. Again. #RESIST

Four - In an hour, I'll be buying tickets to go see Welcome to Night Vale live. With [personal profile] replyhazy . I AM SO EXCITED I CAN BARELY CONTAIN MYSELF. Also, I get to go see PMJ with my sister in 9 days.

Five - Donating to Planned Parenthood. Partly because it's the right thing to do. Partly because people are awesome and help incentivize it. http://puzzlesforprogress.francisheaney.com/

Bonus - Going to write another Fairy Tale Fragment today. Not sure what about yet, not sure if I can make it upbeat and hopeful. But I'm-a give it a try. 
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On
Downwood's right foot has decided to stop working. Stabbity pain and everything. So I took advantage of our sick leave policy and stayed home. Got kids on bus, got house picked up, got kid off of bus, and got Downwood to the dr. Work took this opportunity to explode, but I ignored it and continued running after kids, cleaning, and shopping.

Two
I'm exhausted. Like, constantly. Fitbit thinks I'm sleeping okay and long enough, but it doesn't feel like it.

Three
I went for comfort in my attire for today. Jeans that are far too big, WtNV shirt, Browncoat Whiskey hoodie, fuzzy purple boots, and my GitNB beanie. Not stylish, not pretty, but warm and cozy.

Four
I'm still actively angry about the results of the election. I'm calling DC frequently. I refuse to be gaslit and accept that this is our new normal. This is not okay.

Five
My next UW course starts on Thursday. I should really pay my tuition. It's about machine-level language, so not sure what we'll be doing. But I'll be taking it with [Bad username or site: bexdragon, @ livejournal.com] so that will be fun.

Bonus
I'm looking forward to sewing this weekend. My subtle Starfleet cosplay fabric arrived yesterday, so that's on the docket, as are some sweaters and quilt blocks. Sewing makes me happy. I like making things

things

Oct. 12th, 2016 09:56 am
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I'm writing a political screed in iambic pentameter. Because why not.

I am frustrated with my current Comp Sci class. I do not enjoy lectures with this professor.

I am deeply enjoying Summer in Orcus (http://www.redwombatstudio.com/portfolio/summer-in-orcus/). It is lovely. I'm waiting to see how it ends before I start reading it to Emi. Because I know my girl and how she overreacts to "scary" things.

Alex was up at 4 this morning with an asthma attack. I got him calmed down enough to use the nebulizer, then Downwood got up and sat with him until that was done. My brain didn't want to go back to sleep. So I got a giant coffee this morning and am now fighting off the waves of anxiety that come with overcaffeination.

I signed up for NaNoWriMo. Because, clearly, I'm insane.

I've already worked two miracles this morning. One of the recipients will never give the thanks that are due. The other will be ecstatic. Because yeah.

I need a Mental Health Day. Because all the things above.

I have ambitious sewing projects planned for Hogswatch. See above about insane.
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Thanks to a stellar performance on my final programming project and the good graces of our professor applying a very, very slight curve, I'm sitting at a 4.0 GPA. EVERYBODY HAPPY DANCE!

I've received my official assignment for my Werk Conference of Doooom cosplay. During the massive Tuesday night shindig, I'm the Queen of Hearts! OFF WITH THEIR HEADS! I don't have to be QoH the whole week if I don't want to. I have permission to be both Cheshire and White Rabbit if I so choose. MWAHAHAHAHA! Now to negotiate with my official costumer and buy bunny ears.

Kid birthday party is Sunday. I have a Google Doc with lists of things to do, find, clean, buy, and prep. This is how I roll. Our allergy-friendly menu will be hot dogs (Emi only), chips, fruit punch, and sno-cones. I'm tempted to make some Rice Krispy treats, just to have something in which to stick candles. I have face paint, glitter tattoos, DIY bouncy balls, sidewalk chalk, and the entirety of the park to run around in. And lures for the Pokestop that's next to the shelter.

I've spent nearly an hour and a half on the phone with a customer that's not mine. I'm the expert they need, though, so I'll stay on the line. I am both the voice of reason and the voice of experience. They're at a better place now than when their tech manager called me in a panic, so it's all good.

My EC Boom!Box is on the way. I'm SO EXCITED to see what I get! Mystery makeup!!

I'm listening to the Iron Druid Chronicles again. I'm on Hammered and things are starting to go horribly wrong for Atticus.

As always, I have too much to do at work, but I'm doing okay with it so far. So far. We'll see how the rest of the week goes.
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Today is so far better than yesterday. This may be because I had two glorious, unscheduled hours in which I could do my actual work. Unfortunately for my mental state and productivity, I'm scheduled in meetings every single hour for the rest of the day. Balls.

Good things. Listing some good things to trick my brain into having a better day.
  • I HAVE A NEW NIECE AND SHE IS ADORABLE AND WONDERFUL AND I GET TO SEE HER OVER LABOR DAY WEEKEND!
  • I'm very close to level 20 in Pokemon Go. I need to evolve a bunch of Pidgies and Ratattas so that I can level. Then I can evolve my Eevee and get something totally badass.
  • I got my yearly raise this month. I really am getting paid enough to deal with this level of ridiculousness.
  • I'm wearing one of my modified Monetas and feel like a million bucks. Modifications include: standard bodice alteration to fit, pleating the skirt instead of gathers (faster), self-drafted flutter sleeves (SO PROUD), and a V-neck with band instead of collar.
  • DID I MENTION I HAVE A BRAND-NEW BABY NIECE?!?
  • I'm almost done with the Creativity pack on Headspace. Next up is Pro 3.
  • Emi LOVES the new Kid Headspace packs. I need to try it on Alex.
  • I had an iced latte this morning. Always a good thing.
  • My nails are pretty. Espionage Cosmetics makes wonderful nail wraps. This week I'm wearing the Purple & Teal Masks. My fingers are incognito.
  • MY NIECE'S NAME IS LARA AND SHE IS APPARENTLY ALREADY A CHAMPION SNUGGLER!
  • I had my final exam for my summer CS class on Monday. I don't think I got 100 again, but I don't think I did too badly. I just have to finish the last bit of the last assignment, get it submitted, and I'm DONE.
That's actually a pretty good list. I like it.

Rainy day

Mar. 31st, 2016 10:41 am
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The view from my window today is not motivating. It is gray and rainy and icky. Bleah.

I'm wearing "I don't care" clothes today. Bright red palazzo pants (so comfy), xkcd shirt, UW ball cap, WtNV hoodie, and my favorite walking shoes. This doesn't actually improve my mood at work, I've found. If I look nice, I think I do better work, since I feel better about things. At least I'm comfortable.

Emi and I are continuing to cheer each other on in our 30 Day Plank Challenges. It feels good to do this with her, even as she's CRUSHING ME. Her starting baseline time was 30 seconds longer than mine. I'm so proud!

I felt virtuous last night. I finally submitted my nominations for the Hugo ballot. I worked primarily from my Goodreads shelf, sorting by publication date. Turns out that I'm REALLY BAD at reading new books in a timely manner. Lately I've been really bad at reading in general. I don't know what's wrong with me.

I really wish they served booze at work. This phone call is killing my soul. I've explained the same thing approximately SEVEN THOUSAND TIMES. Argh.

Platypus Evolution and Octopus Evolution are stupid time sinks, but they're oddly soothing little games. The critters rapidly become things that wouldn't look out of place at a petting zoo in Night Vale. I like it.

I'm on an anxiety roller coaster spiral deathmatch today. Various unpleasant emotions are cluttering up my mind. I'm using the tricks and tools from years of therapy and meditation, but it sucks.
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  • I'm getting good at Zentangles. I'm nowhere near as good as most of the blogs and I don't really want to pay the $k to become a Certified Zentangle Instructor, but I like it. Downwood wants me to post a picture with some of my favorite ones and a quarter to show the scale. He also thinks I should point out that I'm doing all this with office supplies stolen from werk and not actual art supplies.
  • The thing Downwood and I are writing is at 95.5k words. So. Close.
  • I have fabric for business casual Cheshire Cat and Queen of Hearts dresses. I have patterns and fabric picked out for a formal QoH dress. Because reasons.
  • I've been practicing making teacups out of playing cards. I have roughly 60 packs of cards I can use for crafting. So far I've made two cups, each not quite what I was hoping for. Getting the angle on the cards for the cup is harder than it looks. Also, E6000 is scary stuff. It's my new favorite crafting aid.
  • I'm sick and tired of being exhausted all the time. And of having at least one of the kids being sick. Saturday, Alex crawled into my lap for a snuggle and decided that was a good time to throw up everywhere. It will be a glorious day when the kids are old enough to be able to run to the bathroom and throw up IN the toilet.
  • I've been trying to fix a thing since Friday. Someone at the customer site did something Not Good several months ago and they just went live this weekend, so now they've noticed it. I was on the phone on Saturday and pretty much all of Sunday afternoon. I worked on it this morning for a couple hours, too. IT'S FINALLY FIXED, OMG! http://reactiongifs.com/?p=23411
  • I like colored lip balm. I have a couple of favorites now. I also have a text file called "Lip Balm Reviews" on my desktop. I don't wear other makeup on a daily basis, but I've started to enjoy having colored lips. I've also had to get used to having lip prints on my cups. So that's a thing.
  • Today is Pi Day! There will be pie in about 40 minutes. This is a good thing.
  • Work sucks. Life does not suck. Work is not life. Yus.
  • I took Emi to see Zootopia. We had the theater with the recliner seats. I also talked to the concession people and they went to the back to read ingredients for me. Turns out that Emi can have movie theater popcorn WITH "butter". Super awesome.

friday yay

Feb. 5th, 2016 03:09 pm
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It's Friday! Woo!

Tonight is for dropping the car off to get fixed, dinner with friend, books, and buying of ice cream
Tomorrow is for Ice Cream For Breakfast Day, calling Mom to sing Happy Birthday, and picking up my car from the fixers.

Downwood and I just passed 50k words on this thing we've been writing. We started it on 1/6. Therefore, we won a NaNo.

KUEC just said, in response to someone on Twitter wondering if there are dildos in Star Wars, "Anywhere there are humans, they have invented dildo technology! Humans are just like that." I'm laughing too hard to breathe. Now they're discussing the anthropology and archaeology of dildos. I. can't. breathe.

Work is making me crazy. Whatever.

Emi has a pretty nasty chest cold. She shared it with me. She's been pretty miserable lately.

Alex is trying new words and new sounds every day. He's becoming more and more vocal. It's an amazing, wonderful thing.

I've done a good job (I think) managing anxiety this week. Meditation is helping. I'm very much enjoying the Self Esteem pack so far! 15 down, 15 to go.

My zendoodles and zentangles are becoming popular-ish on Instagram. Actual artist people seem to like them. Enormously flattering.

Friday. Yay!

small joys

Jan. 19th, 2016 09:12 am
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Alex didn't want to get out of bed this morning. So snoozy. When we have to get someone out of bed before they're ready, we'll say that they're "not done on both sides". This is something I remember my grandmother telling me. Alex wasn't even done on one side this morning. He finally staggered out of his room just as I was getting ready to go. He held his arms up and just wanted hugs. He laid his head on my shoulder and refused to let go. So we hugged for a long while.

Our family xmas present from my in-laws was a piano. It's a full keyboard and has all sorts of electronic effects. It has very high reviews on Amazon. The kids are enthralled. Now we need to find a teacher.

It is Tuesday, so I had an extra coffee this morning. Small skim almond latte for the win!

I have only two sessions left in my 30 day Anxiety pack on Headspace. It has helped. I haven't had to take the Xanax in a while! Woo!

My Fitbit thinks I didn't have any active minutes yesterday. My Fitbit doesn't understand me. The Saidi choreography that Teacher M's putting us through is ZIPPY. Holy buckets. Also, my phone is convinced that my Fitbit is out of battery. There's a lot of miscommunication going on here.

I don't have pockets today so I'm not going to refresh my lipstick. Still, I put it on this morning, so that counts toward my resolution.
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 Wait, what?! How is it already the end of the year?! I'm pretty sure it should still be Halloween or maybe Thanksgiving. The year just sort of evaporated on me. And now I'm at the end of my vacation with not nearly as many things done around the house as I should've.

This year I...
  • Learned
    • that I can make art just for the sake of making something pretty and it doesn't suck.
    • that it's okay to go back to therapy
    • German and Spanish. Sort of. 49% fluent, anyway.
    • how to meditate
    • that work doesn't suck so much if I have a team lead who's willing to work with me and actually get me things that bring me joy and take away the things that bring me misery and woe.
    • how to navigate railway systems in three cities where I didn't speak the language.
    • that I can drink 4.5 liters of beer in a day and not have too bad of a hangover the next morning.
    • that getting a new cell phone is horrible and painful and I don't want to deal with it for another three years. Or until a new shiny iPhone comes out and I can upgrade for free.
    • that it feels really good to go through things and fill boxes and boxes with STUFF for donation.
    • that my friends are awesome and even when my jerkbrain tries to tell me to not leave the house, they're still glad to see me and things will be okay.
    • how to blow dry my hair and get the lovely flips and waves that my hairdresser can get.
    • how to wear red lipstick.
    • that taking my husband and son to the ER sucks. Staying with my son for the next day in the hospital is also no fun.
    • how to use super glue for first aid and that liquid bandages are great.
    • that I get an allergic reaction to red pigment in tattoos. This is troubling. Also, I completed my shoulder peacock and got my birthday cardinal. And an adorable tiny pumpkin.
  • Read
    • lots and lots of good books. Goodreads has my full list. 
      • Highlights include: Uprooted, The Thirteenth Tale, William Shakespeare's Star Wars, PrinceLess, Castle Hangnail, Furiously Happy, The Martian, and Ancillary Mercy.
    • many old favorites cover-to-cover
      • Highlights include: Eleanor and Park, Sunshine, Snowcrash, The Enchantment Emporium, Hogfather, The Wee Free Men, The Finishing School series, Let's Pretend This Never Happened, The Girl who...Fairyland books, American Gods, and Good Omens.
    • not much in the way of newspapers or magazines.
    • probably too much online.
    • chapter books to BOTH kids, including the entirety of the Dragonbreath series to Alex.
    • that while most dating sim concepts make my eyelid twitch, a PIGEON dating sim will make me cackle maniacally.
  • Watched
    • not much TV, honestly. 
    • some good football
    • some terrible football
    • Emi at ballet
    • Alex at soccer
    • Emi graduate from Kindergarten
    • only a couple movies, but TWO were in the theater (Inside Out with Emi, Force Awakens with Downwood)
    • not enough bellydance, but some of it was Ozma, so that balances everything out.
    • cultural events in Berlin, Munich, and Brussels. I have no idea what was going on for most of it, but it was very interesting. And confusing
    • Alex start trying out words and talking to us
    • my kids LOSE THEIR MINDS on a train ride, in the Field Museum, in the Shedd Aquarium, and at the new cafeteria at werk.
  • Tried
    • more cosplay. Specifically Lucille Ball. For work. LIVING THE DREAM.
    • making more clothes. I made LEGGINGS THAT FIT. This is miraculous.
    • to not let the depression and anxiety win. I think my record's about 50/50.
    • to come up with a way to kill myself, but couldn't think of anything that wouldn't traumatize Emi. Not the best reason, but certainly not the worst.
    • to not beat myself up about being on 5 full time psych meds and another for emergencies.
    • to cut most alcohol out of my diet. I do pretty good most of the time now.
    • meditation. I love it.
    • using colored pencils and coloring books. So fun. Especially when I get pages from Colorful Language or the Sweary Coloring book.
    • to brew some beer. Still need to bottle. Bottling sucks.
    • to teach Alex how to use the potty. Still struggling. But he can mostly get clothes on and off by himself, so that's a big step forward.
  • Didn't
    • play any pen-and-paper RPGs. I ran my Scion game, but didn't play anything other than computer games.
    • play all the board and card games I bought
    • take any belly dance workshops (I think). I went to some shows, but not to the workshop...at least, not that I remember.
    • always listen to my jerkbrain. Tried to let some of it go, in fact.
    • chicken out of going on the trip of a lifetime
    • go to any funerals
    • have any serious injuries
    • get any piercings or change my hair color. I'm still using the same henna as the last couple years and I love it.

 
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My jerkbrain tries to keep telling me that I'm a horrible person, a failure, not worth anything, and all the assorted nonsense that goes along with it. I mostly know I'm none of those things, but the jerkbrain is loud and inside my head, where things seem to be true.

And so now I list the rebuttals to the jerkbrain, because it's the only thing I can think to do right now to make it shut the hell up.
  1. I am eating donuts because donuts are delicious. Also, I bought extra donuts and delivered them to a friend at work. This made both of our days better.
  2. I have pretty much all xmas gifts sorted. Just a couple last things to do. Yes, I went over budget in some cases, but it's going to be okay.
  3. I am making art when I doodle. It's not the high-falutin' gallery art, but it's pretty and it's mine.
  4. My kids are awesome. Alex was deeply impressed by my outfit today - dinosaur xmas sweatshirt and socks with dinosaurs in santa hats. He and I share a certain love of ancient reptiles that Emi and Downwood don't necessarily understand.
  5. Nine more working days until holiday break.
  6. I won something in an internet random-number generator giveaway! And it was something I really wanted! I may never win anything online ever again, but it's worth it. The something? Seanan McGuire's most recent album, full of monster movies and mad science. Woot! I say, WOOOOOT!
  7. I have a haircut tonight. My bangs will finally be back under my control.
  8. I am almost able to breathe normally. There are still things happening in my bronchial passages that are unacceptable, but for the most part I sound normal again.
  9. I bought Scott Bradlee's album of holiday piano jazz. It's lovely.
  10. I'm allowed to fend off a panic attack by any means necessary. I'm allowed to do what I need to do to keep moving. It's fine.
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But I am sick and distracted and frazzled.

Things I have recently learned and/or experienced:
  • Thanksgiving was awesome. It's my favorite holiday. There's no pressure for gifts or fancy costumes (though I do love me a fancy costume). I just have to cook good, simple food and have my house clean enough that there are places for people to sit. The food was delicious and our people were great. It was wonderful.
  • This year's emergency call to [livejournal.com profile] bexdragon wasn't for butter, bread, or any of the usual items. It was for super glue. For first aid purposes. Yes, I managed to slice my thumb open pretty badly while prepping veggies. Bex was a hero and bought superglue for the sealing of the wound. It's healing nicely.
  • In related news, Emi learned that she shouldn't play with super glue. She glued two of her fingers together and was sobbing because it was instant and hurt to pull them apart and then the glue wouldn't come off her fingers. She learned some important lessons, but I told her it was okay because she told me the truth about what happened and she didn't glue her finger inside her nose or eyes and she didn't glue her buns to the toilet seat. She laughed and things are okay.
  • I think I'm done with my holiday shopping. I'm waiting on some things to be delivered, but I think I'm done. This is good. I have a couple things yet to make (princess dresses and mermaid blankets), but those are pretty easy. Now I need to wrap all the things. Ugh.
  • My kids are wonderful. Alex is getting new words and sounds. He's trying SO HARD to communicate. Whew! Emi is a bundle of drama. There are moments when I regret having kids - mostly when our child-free friends go on spontaneous vacations - but then they do something cute and I'm glad I'm their Momma.
  • I have a chest cold and feel icky and my voice is dropping octaves. I want to go home at noon so I can rest and not talk. And sew.
  • I've been working on Things To Make Me A Better Human. These include: continuing to use Duolingo daily, but switching to Spanish instead of German, using my coloring books and colored pencils, making Zentangles, making elaborate doodles with colored pens, and learning meditation. I think I'm in a better place because of all these...and a new anti-anxiety med. I'm now on a regime of LOTS OF MEDS, so I need to find the other things that will smooth out the edges of my mental state and let me remember what "relaxation" feels like.
  • Meditation is interesting. I'm using the Headspace app. I bought a year membership so that I'd commit to doing this daily. So far, it's been a nice thing. I'm worried about how I'll get the time when we're visiting family, but I can use it as a "I need to lie down" moment and hopefully maintain my calm. I have a voucher for a free month if anyone's interested. Voucher claimed on FB!
  • Dance is good. We're working on a choreography that is mostly gentle, 1970s-style. Lots of Reda. It's a nice change from the OMG!DRAMAH of the last piece.
  • Work is still work. Lots of things to do and my levels of cope are low. No bueno.

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  1. I'm wearing my new peacock feather palazzo pants. They're comfortable and adorable.
  2. Alex said something very close to "Love you" this morning.
  3. The coffee cart nearest my building was open this morning. I have a mocha and a pumpkin muffin.
  4. Dance class last night was good. The new choreography is gentle and kind. Mostly.
  5. I have started to KonMari my closet and clothes. I have too much stuff. I brought some of my shoes to dance and GPS found a couple pairs that fit. I wished them happiness together. She promised to break up with them gently if it doesn't work out.
  6. I have a new set of pens for doodling. They are at home. As long as I'm not trying to mimic an actual object, I do okay with doodles. I just can't draw real things.
  7. I've started learning how to meditate. I'm using the Headspace app for this. So far, so good.
  8. We're entering the time of year when all the summer hires at work are submitting their final programming class exercises. I'm one of the reviewers for these exercises. I have power and wield it like AN IRON FIST OF DOOM. I'm picky, pedantic, and rip things to shreds. It takes time, but it's worth it. Also, tearing apart code is one of my joys in life. I get to indulge my inner perfectionist. It's lovely.
  9. I'm considering making a Darth Vader dress for going to see the new movie in. I need black and grey jersey. And an iron-on chest patch, since I have neither an embroidery machine nor the time, patience, and stuff to either embroider or wire a chest patch. Though...that would be interesting.
  10. Neko Atsume is an adorable little app. You're a crazy cat lady and you put food and toys in your yard to lure in stray cats. It's not as soothing as 1010 or Sudoku, but it's far less brain.

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I got my birthday tattoo on Saturday. It's a gorgeous male cardinal. Grandpa Tom wouldn't approve, but I think he would understand.

My neck and shoulders are nothing but pain. I have a massage tomorrow for my birthday. Everything hurts. Much stabby.

It makes me a little crazy when people say "dithered" instead of "disabled" or "deactivated" when it comes to a button that isn't lit up for clicking. There are all sorts of words you could use, but that one's just wrong.

We went out to Hookah as a family Saturday night. I was hoping for a Newer Dancer Night, but not enough other people volunteered. Instead, we had dinner with an old friend and a fellow Mnah-Mnah dancer. It was lovely. We also watched new dancer K's first set as a roster dancer. She needs to slow down a bit - she was trucking back and forth between the rooms super fast. She also underestimated how long it would take her to collect tips, so she was just dancing with a basket of money for a while. She'll learn. Alex was ENTHRALLED. It was nice.

Emi has been nothing but whiny lately. Either she's picked up a bad habit from a TV show or from friends at school. Either way, it's entirely on all of my nerves.

Alex has been a snugglebug. He's also been using more and more words. This is awesome.

A couple weeks ago, Downwood put up several gallons of cider and honey to start brewing. Yesterday, he racked it to secondary fermentation and I put down a batch of Saison de Noel. It was nice to be brewing again. I'd forgotten how soaked everything gets...and that I need a new thermometer.

I need to go through things and winnow/clear. I have a box of gifts downstairs that needs to be inventoried so I know who still needs a present for the holidaze. I need to go through my brewing stuff and see what I have and what's still good. I need to clear my closet and shelves of things that don't fit or I don't like. I need to declutter my life. Too. Much. Stuff.
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  • I uploaded most of the good pictures from my phone to Facebook. 
  • I've cleared out both home email accounts
  • I found a coupon code for a free Shutterfly photo book in one email account, so I put together a book with the photos from our trip.
  • I've kept the house as picked up and tidy as my parents left it. Mostly.
  • I've had to worry if Alex has a seizure disorder.
    • We got a call from the school that he collapsed in the hallway, wasn't breathing, then started shaking and vomiting. He seems to be better today, but now I'm worried that there's something else going on. Criminy.
  • Gotten my body back onto a somewhat normal sleep schedule.
  • Reinstalled Twitter.
  • Read to and snuggled with kids
  • Mailed thank you notes and gifts to parents
  • Done some other home things that now I can't remember.
 

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Anxiety brain is kicking into overdrive today. Here are some of the things:
  • Major program I need to do my work decided to just not load today. Uninstalling and reinstalling didn't help. PANIC!
  • Restarting my computer to help Major Program work. Outlook didn't want to come back up. PANIC!
  • Customer is being dumb about organizing a meeting. They keep changing the time, now to a point where I have to miss another meeting I should really go to. PANIC!
  • I'm doing a Lucy makeup test today. I'm wearing Bright Red Lipstick. I don't even. PANIC!
  • My shirt, though cute, is snug. My skirt is also snug at the top. All chub on display. PANIC!
  • My shoes, though EXTREMELY comfortable, are neither trendy nor adorable. PANIC!
  • Werk crazy times start on Monday. I have to be dressed, makeup, hair, and doing a Lucy impression by 7:15 Monday morning. I don't know how to do the hair yet. I need to binge watch more episodes to be able to do a decent impression. PANIC!
  • I need to re-henna my hair. We have out-of-town guests this weekend. How am I going to both dye my hair and practice styling it and get my hemming done and my laundry done and iron my clothes for next week and do my fantasy football draft with work group and get the house picked up and get all the things accomplished and still be a decent host and talk to my friends and admire their offspring and and and and and PANICPANICPANIC.

My shirt is bright blue. It has Karen Hallinon's illustration of Stitch wearing Jayne's Cunning Hat. It is teh cute.
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 The entry page just ate my very long entry about work and the past weekend. I'm not re-creating that thing.

The highlights:
  • Work is terrible. I haven't gotten to do the things I enjoy in a long time. I have to do the things I'm good at and the company needs, but that kill my soul a little more each day.
  • We went to the zoo on Saturday. It was super fun and we enjoyed it a lot.
  • We played with some fun stuff from my "Things to do without screens" book. If you mix baking soda, salt, dish soap, and water, you can make a kind of dough to play with. Then give the kids a squirt bottle of vinegar. Yay, science!
  • I sewed some of my new hacci knits into a sweater for Mom for xmas.
  • I played far too much of Hatoful Boyfriend. It's the most messed up dating sim in the history of the world. You're a human, hunter/gatherer, living in a cave, getting text messages, and going to school at a prestigious pigeon academy. You must romance the pigeons. If you don't romance pigeons effectively enough, Bad Things happen. I've played through 3 endings and have probably 4 more to go. It's gloriously messed up, but really only worth it if you buy it at 75% off. It's good value for $2.50. 
  • The summer is nearly over. Emi has her last ballet and swim lessons this week. Sunday-Monday are our Big Birthday Trip to Chicago. I'm not sure where all the time went.
  • Emi can be an overly dramatic pill. She can also be a sweet, loving, intelligent, creative kiddo. These are not mutually exclusive.
  • Ox not only knows the letters and that they can make sounds, but has figured out that words make sounds. And that Momma will say a word over and over if he keeps pointing at it. This is hilarious for both Momma and Ox. I thought he was going to either get the hiccups or throw up, he was laughing so hard tonight. This was right after he had me say QUACK about 20 times. 
  • My back and neck are very messed up. I have about 60% of my normal range of motion. Ugh.

Good enough, I think.

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Voice is still growly. Coughing *seems* less.

Downwood found Ox's lovey! Bedtime contentment restored.

I purchased a travel backpack and a theft-resistant purse for our trip. I may yet purchase a new carry-on bag. I just don't want to deal with hassle in Germany.

This petal skirt seems reasonable (http://bundleupsale.com/product/perfect-petal-skirt-by-little-lizard-king/). This petal skirt does not (http://www.cashmerette.com/2014/12/by-hand-london-kim-is-party-girl.html), unless you *want* everyone at the company party to know what brand and style of undies you prefer.

The audiobook for Of Noble Family is lovely. It's also intensely uncomfortable. The narrators are really selling the characters and since this is Regency England and the characters are on a sugarcane plantation on Antigua...yeah. For my homeward commute, I'm placing a bookmark where I am now and then jumping to the last couple chapters. I can handle those...probably. Many feels.

My kids are growing so fast. They still need hugs and snuggles, but they're not babies anymore. *sniff* They're small people with minds of their own. And senses of humor. I need to not screw this up too badly.

Do they do Groupons or deals for the Field Museum and Shedd Aquarium? We're thinking that dinosaurs and fishies will make a good birthday treat for our nature-loving kiddos.

I have my semi-annual dentist appointment tomorrow. Yey. But then it's over for 6 months. So, yay?

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  1. Today is Take Your Kid to Work Day. Ox is still feeling puny (head cold plus - I suspect - pollen allergies), so Downwood will be dropping off Emi and taking Ox home. No need to share/pick up more germs than necessary. Emi is beside herself. So excited.
  2. Speaking of Emi, we've started reading chapter books at bedtime. So far, they've all been illustrated, but some have only a couple pictures per chapter. Exciting stuff. We started [livejournal.com profile] uruslav 's latest (Castle Hangnail) last night. I'm trying to read a couple chapters ahead so that I'm ready for what's coming up.
  3. I joined a call today just to be helpful. This is a mistake. My eye is twitching. I don't like people who choose to be loud and belligerent just to make a point. Be polite, people.
  4. I started playing GW2 again. Just a bit. I don't have any goals, so it's not the same feeling as before. M'eh.
  5. I worked on my Hemming Pile Of Doom last night. I had my bobbin run out and then one of my spools of thread (dual-needle hemming) ran out. So I just finished that one hem and gave up. Also, I need to see if I have another spool of plain black thread. I don't particularly want to drive up to a fabric store soon, but I might have to.
  6. There is no six.
  7. German pronouns and articles are of the devil. Yes, I understand the noun gender concept - I took Spanish and Latin - but the German nouns tend to not make sense in my head. Argh.
  8. I have done some complicated, good work today. I'm going to put on some tentacle nail wraps now and not speak my mind on this call or the next.

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Apr. 9th, 2015 02:47 pm
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My eyelid is twitching again. Past experience tells me that this is due to a toxic buildup of stress. This is actually unsurprising.

I'm on the phone, listening to confusion and frustration about ICD-10. I would rather be home with a book and tea or taping together and tracing patterns. This doesn't really seem like a hard choice.

I bought a bunch of candy on Half-Price Chocolate Day (Monday). My desk drawer is now a dangerous and magical place.

The manatees tell me it's okay to say "No" when asked if I'm okay. http://calmingmanatee.com/9 This is an important message.

I spent my fabric budget for the month. I got sparkly snowflakes and a couple different blues (not sure what will match best) for some Elsa clothes for Emi. I got flowers for another Moneta dress. I got crazy strips for another Ina maxi skirt. It means I won't buy a KnitFix, but that's okay.

I had a really delicious lunch. I love our werk cafeteria most days.

My nails may not make it to Saturday. This makes me sad, as they're pretty cool right now. It's the Literary wraps http://espionagecosmetics.com/nailed-it/literary.html with a gold glitter topcoat. Also, my thumbs are summoning a chthonic ancient deity. We all win. Or lose.

And now it's time to jump on yet another call where I may or may not get yelled at. Luckily, the manatees are backing me up. http://calmingmanatee.com/22

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