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My to do list at work is insane. What the hell, reality?

I got a pedicure yesterday. I also went to the grocery store, did several loads of laundry, organized clean sheets for all beds, and did some sewing. I'm not a failure for wanting to play some GW2 and work on my Maze of Games book. I got things done and that's okay.

Sewing update: I finished a beige slip yesterday, so I can wear my pencil skirt with confidence! I need to put black thread in my regular sewing machine, and I'll be done with my black slip. Both are lining fabric tubes with an elastic casing at the top and lace at the bottom. I didn't have a pattern, just an idea of how I needed them to work.

I almost finished my Lady Skater dress. I need to topstitch the neckband and hem the bottom and it's done. I tried it on and it fits like a freaking glove. I'm afraid to look in the mirror because I felt fabulous when I put it on, but I know I won't feel fabulous when I see myself. The majority of the dress is this feather fabric from Girl Charlee (http://www.girlcharlee.com/feathers-on-silver-peony-cotton-jersey-blend-knit-fabric/girl-charlee-p-7910.html?cPath=149 ;), but the neck and sleeve bands are the deep peacock. I also added a 5 inch band of the peacock around the hem. I'm glad I did, since otherwise it would be much too short. Next time, I make the skirt longer. Yus. This is the peacock fabric (http://www.girlcharlee.com/peacock-blue-solid-cotton-spandex-knit-fabric-p-7166.html?cPath=90_114 ;). Overall, it's a lovely pattern and I'll make it again.

eShakti's having a sale. I could get a couple of the poplin dresses that I love for far cheaper than usual. Crap.

The guy in the office next to me is ALREADY cursing at the top of his lungs. Fuck.

I'm glad I upped my Kickstarter pledge for the Maze of Games to get the PDF of the book as well as the hardcover. I'm working through the first set of puzzles, and it's nice to not be scribbling in my book while doing it. Some of the puzzles are HARD, yo. It's stretching my brain in weird ways, but I like it. It's a good story, a neat concept, and it's hard. It makes me feel smart and clever when I solve the problem.

Okay. Time to get another cup of caffeine and tackle this to do list. Yes.

I am human

Mar. 11th, 2014 09:22 am
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It's okay to have bad days. It's okay to wake up grumpy. Everyone wakes up grumpy and has bad days. Ox is my Morning Person kid. He's so darn happy to see another day. Today, he wasn't done on both sides and was grumpy and wanted both snuggles and to be left alone. At the same time. It's okay to have bad days, it's part of being human.

It's okay that I'm not as graceful as Au, as precise as GPS, as knowledgeable as RH, or as emotive as N. I'm me. I have my own dance voice and my own set of skills and there are things that I do well and things that I do not so well. It doesn't make anyone better or worse. Just human. Just different. It's okay.

My jerkbrain isn't right. Messing up on one thing doesn't mean that I'm a failure as a person. It means I'm human and I make mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes, especially when they're learning new things. That's fine. That's what learning and being human is about. My jerkbrain isn't right.

I am flawed. I am not perfect. I do not have to conform to the extremely narrow definition of beauty and success the media celebrates. It's okay. It's okay to play and read with my kids. It's okay to take some time for me. It's okay to cry and be angry. It's okay to mess up. It's okay to apologize. It's okay to try to be more and grow. It's okay.

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