cleverly disguised as a responsible adult

I just got another surprise werk trip. That makes three for this month. I hate everything.

I'm driving to Peoria next Tuesday night and back the next evening. As of right now, I can't remember if there's something going on either of those nights that I'm going to miss.

I'm sick of the higher-ups assuming that we low-level tech experts have no lives and can just travel on a whim. Maybe some people enjoy it, but I always prefer to be home. I'm sick of them saying "But we gave you a WEEK'S notice?! What's the problem?!". Now I have to, again, scramble to find backups for all the other work that I won't be getting done.

Therapy tomorrow is going to hurt. I'm afraid that my safe place isn't going to be safe enough. But I need the help, so I'm going to go and do my best and be honest and all that crap.

Good Things To Look Forward To: Paint Nite with Au! Yay! Muppet fusion and Nerd fusion! Yay! Halloween! Reading some good books and good audiobooks! Good podcasts! Seeing my dad's family in November! THANKSGIVING!

I can do this. I'm just really annoyed with my bosses right now.

I need to keep a calendar in my office. One that says "X days since we discussed problem Y". Or maybe just a ticker to count the number of times I've given this customer their three options for how to deal with the issue. I know we've discussed it at least once a week since March and we discussed it a bit back to December. So far this week, we've talked about it every day. And every time, they've completely forgotten everything we talked about the previous time, so I have to start at the beginning again.

8 AM calls are no fun. They're especially no fun when the customer is in a time zone to the east of mine. Coffee is necessary today.

Stupid uterus. Stupid hormones. Stupid broken brain chemistry.

I need a pedicure. I also need a haircut. The latter is scheduled for this Saturday, however the former is just wishful thinking.

My house is a disaster area. I also have two small children. I think these things are related, but I'm not entirely sure.

I'm tired of living in reality. I need a good fantasy. One where I can see myself as others see me - pretty, intelligent, capable, all the positive adjectives that my jerkbrain doesn't let me see. Also, I'd like some superpowers. That'd be boss.

I finally have enough of my pictures and stuff around my new office to make it feel like "werk home". I still don't have a keyboard tray installed, however, so the return of neck, shoulder, and arm pain is not cool. Tired of this.

Why does nail polish have to chip? Bleargh.

Feeling very negative today. I need to eat something to adjust my mood. I skipped home breakfast so's I could get to my early meeting on time. It's now time to eat my packed breakfast in the hopes that boosting my blood sugar will help boost my mood.

Also, ARGH!