major anxiety day

Woke up with a pounding headache. Advil, coffee, and neck stretches have helped some, but not much. Feel foggy and not quite done on both sides.

Fuck.


Messed up on all my reminders. My therapy app't was YESTERDAY, not TODAY.

Fuck.

Work is full of people demanding my help and crowding my calendar to the point where I can't actually get work done.

Fuck.

My code keeps having problems as one of our QAers goes through it with a fine-tooth comb. And any time I make changes and want to move them to a testing environment, I have to back out and then re-insert Other Dude's changes because he's being a slacker and not actually finishing his work, making my life harder than it needs to be.

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Dance last night was good. I need to open more - be more vulnerable to the audience. Open my heart chakra. Or just fake it.  All present oohed and aahed over the coloring of my peacock so far. We had to demo the Alf Leyla choreo for Steampunk K and then remember where the heck we were in the new choreo. It's...different. I really like the song and the ways that M is picking up different bits of it, but my brain just isn't comprehending what goes where.

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Maybe it's just an artifact of Tuesday. I get shorted on sleep on Mondays so everything seems worse on Tuesday. Also, I have a ton of email and meetings, which makes life frustrating.

Argh. At least today is a Tasty Indian Fud day. That's something to look forward to.