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I'm liking being a member of the Church of Bloggessianism. It's a comforting place, this church. Also, it's kind of nice to have an exalted title already. This is a Thing that is Making me Smile today. http://thebloggess.com/2014/11/the-church-of-bloggessianism-choose-your-title-strangelings/
Therapy yesterday consisted of two major takeaways. One - I don't have to make the holidays perfect. I just have to be happy and live in the moment. Everything else will take care of itself. Two - I am resilient and tough. I have survived everything that's ever happened to me. I don't have to like change, but I have to know that I'll get through it and it will be okay. I'm not sure I like either of these things, but it's given me a lot to think about.
This post on Epbot has given me a lot to think about. http://www.epbot.com/2014/11/a-is-for-agoraphobia.html I haven't developed full agoraphobia yet, but I'm on my way. I get panic attacks walking into work if I know the day isn't going to follow my "safe" pattern. I can see the future and it is bleak. I will be Taking Steps.
Dance last night was challenging. M decided it was Pick on Sabine Night. Her corrections are good, but I'll be damned if I'm going to be able to incorporate all of them right away. They're things that I ought to be doing, yes, but all at once was a little overwhelming. At least she thinks I'm worth the time and effort to correct. That's a good thing. The choreography continues to make me happy. I don't think I'll ever get to use it, but it's a happy fun piece without a ton of Drama. That is also a good thing.
Today is the 8th anniversary of the day Downwood and I promised to be a family and love and support each other. There are ups and downs, but things are going to be okay.
I have made my initial menu for Thanksgiving and sent it out to all the people who will be attending, along with a list of suggestions for what they can bring. I kind of love not knowing what all will be showing up. We'll have the staples and some of the booze and the inviting atmosphere. That's going to be enough, I think. All the Pinterest boards of fancy table settings and frou-frou options tempt me, but ain't nobody got time for that. I might cave and do a baked Brie, though, in addition to the dishes I already planned (turkey, ham, couple of Ox-safe veggies, cranberries, cider). That recipe looks utterly delightful.
And since I'm back at work after taking Friday and Monday off, my Inbox is a disaster area (though mostly spiffed up) and my task list is daunting. And I'm in meetings from 1-5. Lovely. Time to make the donuts.
Therapy yesterday consisted of two major takeaways. One - I don't have to make the holidays perfect. I just have to be happy and live in the moment. Everything else will take care of itself. Two - I am resilient and tough. I have survived everything that's ever happened to me. I don't have to like change, but I have to know that I'll get through it and it will be okay. I'm not sure I like either of these things, but it's given me a lot to think about.
This post on Epbot has given me a lot to think about. http://www.epbot.com/2014/11/a-is-for-agoraphobia.html I haven't developed full agoraphobia yet, but I'm on my way. I get panic attacks walking into work if I know the day isn't going to follow my "safe" pattern. I can see the future and it is bleak. I will be Taking Steps.
Dance last night was challenging. M decided it was Pick on Sabine Night. Her corrections are good, but I'll be damned if I'm going to be able to incorporate all of them right away. They're things that I ought to be doing, yes, but all at once was a little overwhelming. At least she thinks I'm worth the time and effort to correct. That's a good thing. The choreography continues to make me happy. I don't think I'll ever get to use it, but it's a happy fun piece without a ton of Drama. That is also a good thing.
Today is the 8th anniversary of the day Downwood and I promised to be a family and love and support each other. There are ups and downs, but things are going to be okay.
I have made my initial menu for Thanksgiving and sent it out to all the people who will be attending, along with a list of suggestions for what they can bring. I kind of love not knowing what all will be showing up. We'll have the staples and some of the booze and the inviting atmosphere. That's going to be enough, I think. All the Pinterest boards of fancy table settings and frou-frou options tempt me, but ain't nobody got time for that. I might cave and do a baked Brie, though, in addition to the dishes I already planned (turkey, ham, couple of Ox-safe veggies, cranberries, cider). That recipe looks utterly delightful.
And since I'm back at work after taking Friday and Monday off, my Inbox is a disaster area (though mostly spiffed up) and my task list is daunting. And I'm in meetings from 1-5. Lovely. Time to make the donuts.
