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sabineI'm getting a little fed up with this whole "accepting your emotions" thing. Academically, I know that feelings are normal and natural. I'd still like to be rid of them some days, or at least have settings other than 0 and 100. Maybe they wouldn't be so annoying if I had some moderation...
I'm also a bit furious with my spinelessness. This morning a friend made a comment that made me smile outwardly while my heart was breaking inside. *deep breath* I don't really think there was a better way to handle it. It seems like I'm always trying to be "nice" and not do anything to upset anyone that I don't know if my reactions are proportional or not.
*drop kicks bad mood across the room*
I'm going to go find something to entertain me. Maybe that will make me easier to live with. Must remember how to be cheerful and happy...if I can fool the world, maybe I can fool myself.
I'm also a bit furious with my spinelessness. This morning a friend made a comment that made me smile outwardly while my heart was breaking inside. *deep breath* I don't really think there was a better way to handle it. It seems like I'm always trying to be "nice" and not do anything to upset anyone that I don't know if my reactions are proportional or not.
*drop kicks bad mood across the room*
I'm going to go find something to entertain me. Maybe that will make me easier to live with. Must remember how to be cheerful and happy...if I can fool the world, maybe I can fool myself.
