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missing things that have never happened
Dec. 9th, 2013 01:31 pmFriday - Work. I have no idea what I came home and did.
Saturday - Woke up pretty early with kiddos. Got ready for game.
Gaming happened. Thanks to a single line in a conversation a month ago, the characters found themselves untangling a conspiracy at one of Santa's workshops. They solved the symptoms and received rewards for it, though they didn't look back to find the root cause. This may be important later or we may have moved on to different things.
Saturday evening I sort of felt like death, so I made pancakes and dozed on the couch with Ox. He didn't feel too hot, either, so we made a pathetic/cute pair.
Sunday - Woke up in good time to get breakfast into all of us and the kitchen set up for Craft Extravaganza.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
auryn31 came over and we made Toddler Trees. We covered orange safety cones with green felt, then decorated a bunch of foam and paper ornaments. The ornaments stick on the tree by virtue of velcro applied to their backs. The idea is that it's a tree that's totally safe for small ones to pull the ornaments off of and redecorate at whim. There was much glitter. Much, much glitter.
Both my kids love Au. Au's boy seems to love playing with my kids. It was a really fun way to spend the morning.
As the snow started, I finished up my Sekrit Surprizes for Downwood and the kids for Hogswatch. I wrapped a bunch of presents and decided that other presents are just too bulky/weird to wrap, so I'll hand them out when the time comes. I only have one craft thing left, but it's not something that *must* get done, just something I'd *like* to get done.
The holidays are having their usual effect on me. I'm sad that I can't make everything perfect for everyone. I don't have the time, energy, or money for that. I can't even do the cookie baking bonanza that I used to, since my kids are allergic to everything that'd go in them. Some things I can substitute, but when the only ingredients Ox could have are the baking powder, salt, and vanilla extract, it makes it even more of a challenge.
Today - It's not anxiety. It's very much depression. Part of it is being cold and tired. Part of it is starting off the morning by getting yelled at and knowing that my TL got feedback from some random person that I come across as "a complainer" on internal teams, so I can't vent about how frustrated these people make me. My neck and shoulders are one solid mass of pain. The only things keeping me going right now are wanting to give Emi a high five for solving over a hundred tangram puzzles on my phone, dance class, and the impulse purchases I made at Amazon.
I know if I can make it through the rest of the day, I can run my errands and go dance and it'll be better. And then it'll be tomorrow morning and I can use our exercise bike (yay xmas moneys from mom!) and try to get some replacement neurotransmitters. I just feel like part of being a grownup is running faster and faster to just stay miserable and that's not good.
Other things to look forward to: haircut and board/card games on Saturday, need to schedule cuts for the rest of the family, too. Shellac manicure next week. Then a weekend at my in-laws. Then most of a week at home! Including a trip to get the kids' pictures taken, Downwood's root canal, and Hogswatch. Then a weekend with my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew. I'll get to rest at my mother-in-law's. I get to snuggle a very little dude at my sister's. I get to hold my kiddos the rest of the time. I've got quite a few books on my Kindle to read. I also have some good kid-friendly books on Audible for the car. I also have the magical DVD players to help entertain on the really long hauls.
It's going to be fine. I just don't feel so fine right now. I'm trying to be honest, not whiny. I don't feel like I have very many places in my life anymore that I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not.
Blah. It's going to be fine.
Saturday - Woke up pretty early with kiddos. Got ready for game.
Gaming happened. Thanks to a single line in a conversation a month ago, the characters found themselves untangling a conspiracy at one of Santa's workshops. They solved the symptoms and received rewards for it, though they didn't look back to find the root cause. This may be important later or we may have moved on to different things.
Saturday evening I sort of felt like death, so I made pancakes and dozed on the couch with Ox. He didn't feel too hot, either, so we made a pathetic/cute pair.
Sunday - Woke up in good time to get breakfast into all of us and the kitchen set up for Craft Extravaganza.
auryn31 came over and we made Toddler Trees. We covered orange safety cones with green felt, then decorated a bunch of foam and paper ornaments. The ornaments stick on the tree by virtue of velcro applied to their backs. The idea is that it's a tree that's totally safe for small ones to pull the ornaments off of and redecorate at whim. There was much glitter. Much, much glitter. Both my kids love Au. Au's boy seems to love playing with my kids. It was a really fun way to spend the morning.
As the snow started, I finished up my Sekrit Surprizes for Downwood and the kids for Hogswatch. I wrapped a bunch of presents and decided that other presents are just too bulky/weird to wrap, so I'll hand them out when the time comes. I only have one craft thing left, but it's not something that *must* get done, just something I'd *like* to get done.
The holidays are having their usual effect on me. I'm sad that I can't make everything perfect for everyone. I don't have the time, energy, or money for that. I can't even do the cookie baking bonanza that I used to, since my kids are allergic to everything that'd go in them. Some things I can substitute, but when the only ingredients Ox could have are the baking powder, salt, and vanilla extract, it makes it even more of a challenge.
Today - It's not anxiety. It's very much depression. Part of it is being cold and tired. Part of it is starting off the morning by getting yelled at and knowing that my TL got feedback from some random person that I come across as "a complainer" on internal teams, so I can't vent about how frustrated these people make me. My neck and shoulders are one solid mass of pain. The only things keeping me going right now are wanting to give Emi a high five for solving over a hundred tangram puzzles on my phone, dance class, and the impulse purchases I made at Amazon.
I know if I can make it through the rest of the day, I can run my errands and go dance and it'll be better. And then it'll be tomorrow morning and I can use our exercise bike (yay xmas moneys from mom!) and try to get some replacement neurotransmitters. I just feel like part of being a grownup is running faster and faster to just stay miserable and that's not good.
Other things to look forward to: haircut and board/card games on Saturday, need to schedule cuts for the rest of the family, too. Shellac manicure next week. Then a weekend at my in-laws. Then most of a week at home! Including a trip to get the kids' pictures taken, Downwood's root canal, and Hogswatch. Then a weekend with my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew. I'll get to rest at my mother-in-law's. I get to snuggle a very little dude at my sister's. I get to hold my kiddos the rest of the time. I've got quite a few books on my Kindle to read. I also have some good kid-friendly books on Audible for the car. I also have the magical DVD players to help entertain on the really long hauls.
It's going to be fine. I just don't feel so fine right now. I'm trying to be honest, not whiny. I don't feel like I have very many places in my life anymore that I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not.
Blah. It's going to be fine.
