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brain full. heart sick.
Mar. 25th, 2013 08:40 amReally don't want to go to my 4:30-6:30 meeting today. I'd rather leave right at 5 so that I can go to ShopKo and buy colorful, pretty things before grocery store and dance class. I'm craving color. It's never going to be spring. The snow will just keep coming forever and ever.
I've already screwed up my Monday nail polish. I keep bumping things. Drat. It's much more pastel than I was hoping, but it's nice and shimmery.
Made a whirlwind trip down to my folks' for tax preparation and grandchild visiting. My mom is...difficult. It's very hard to please her. Downwood hates visiting, since it's pretty apparent that she doesn't like him very much. I wanted to talk about the baby shower I'm trying to organize for my little sister. It's been difficult to get my mom's family organized enough to make arrangements.
I'm out of People Points. I'm stressed and tired and sick at heart from just wanting a little peace and quiet. I want to be Super Mom and be with my kids and not get frustrated with Ox needing Momma All The Time, No One Else Will Do.
Man, I'm looking forward to dance class tonight. I needs the trance workout of demons.
Just feeling like everyone wants me to be someone other than who I am. I'm tired of trying to be those people. I just want to be me, even as I'm not entirely sure who me is these days.
Blah.
I've already screwed up my Monday nail polish. I keep bumping things. Drat. It's much more pastel than I was hoping, but it's nice and shimmery.
Made a whirlwind trip down to my folks' for tax preparation and grandchild visiting. My mom is...difficult. It's very hard to please her. Downwood hates visiting, since it's pretty apparent that she doesn't like him very much. I wanted to talk about the baby shower I'm trying to organize for my little sister. It's been difficult to get my mom's family organized enough to make arrangements.
I'm out of People Points. I'm stressed and tired and sick at heart from just wanting a little peace and quiet. I want to be Super Mom and be with my kids and not get frustrated with Ox needing Momma All The Time, No One Else Will Do.
Man, I'm looking forward to dance class tonight. I needs the trance workout of demons.
Just feeling like everyone wants me to be someone other than who I am. I'm tired of trying to be those people. I just want to be me, even as I'm not entirely sure who me is these days.
Blah.
