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sabineNot doing my language practice last night. German is hard and we're getting into Spanish vocabulary that I either never learned or have forgotten. Instead of banging my head against it, I played GW2 with my friends.
Being chubby. I like food and I have little energy for extra activity. Also, my children have misplaced a piece of my exercise bike. Also, we've not had dance class for a month. Also, I'm lazy and tired.
Making a stupid decision or a mistake anytime in the last 30 years. Seriously, brain, mistakes I made in 6th grade are WAY past the statute of limitations. I don't need to feel bad about it or about some of the more recent (12 years ago) things. Yes, some of them are character shaping events and I can learn from it, but I don't need to call myself names or feel terrible because of it. Let it go.
My kids refusing to eat. They'll eat when they're hungry. I just need to keep providing them with healthy options and not stressing about it. Emi's lunches have gone largely uneaten this week except for the carrots that I cut into flowers or stars. Sure, using a tiny steel cookie cutter on slices of carrot is insane, but Emi's EATING them. This is not to be sneezed at.
Not being able to get rid of the bad thoughts immediately. The jerkbrain is loud and depression lies. It doesn't make me a failure or a terrible person that I can't shut these things up. I'm getting help and taking steps and maybe someday, it won't be so hard.
Being chubby. I like food and I have little energy for extra activity. Also, my children have misplaced a piece of my exercise bike. Also, we've not had dance class for a month. Also, I'm lazy and tired.
Making a stupid decision or a mistake anytime in the last 30 years. Seriously, brain, mistakes I made in 6th grade are WAY past the statute of limitations. I don't need to feel bad about it or about some of the more recent (12 years ago) things. Yes, some of them are character shaping events and I can learn from it, but I don't need to call myself names or feel terrible because of it. Let it go.
My kids refusing to eat. They'll eat when they're hungry. I just need to keep providing them with healthy options and not stressing about it. Emi's lunches have gone largely uneaten this week except for the carrots that I cut into flowers or stars. Sure, using a tiny steel cookie cutter on slices of carrot is insane, but Emi's EATING them. This is not to be sneezed at.
Not being able to get rid of the bad thoughts immediately. The jerkbrain is loud and depression lies. It doesn't make me a failure or a terrible person that I can't shut these things up. I'm getting help and taking steps and maybe someday, it won't be so hard.
