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Entry tags:
- anxiety bites,
- kidz,
- life,
- random,
- werk
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The weekend was good. Ox played in the sandbox as much as we'd let him. We put up a swing in the tree on Sunday. Emi played on it as long as we let her. She also wrote a nature book "Emily's Guide to Bugs and Guide to Plants" about her observations in the backyard. She wrote all the words and drew the pictures. It's precious.
I didn't clear off the spare bed, but I did work on organizing my sewing table. I got almost all my printed patterns into envelopes and the envelopes sorted into magazine organizers in my cupboard. Bonus: I found my Ina maxi skirt pattern. I immediately cut out two more skirts from it, this time sizing *down* the waist and upper hips, but leaving the fullness from knees down. The fabrics I had earmarked for the skirts are a lighter weight, so I think a smaller size will help them stay up.
I wore one of my recently hemmed skirts to work on Monday. After I wash it, it's going on the pile of fabric to be reused. I'm just not loving it. It's black with multi-bright stripes, but it's so see through that I'm forced to wear a slip under. Not fun. I'll use it for sleeves or trim somewhere that transparency isn't an issue.
Dance class Monday was good. We did drills to ZOMG!FAST song (Ya Tab Tab, for those playing along at home) and our free dance to a slow, floaty song. The choreography is slightly breaking my brain and we're in the section where the drums are running away with everything and the rest of the orchestra is all like "We'll see you at the end of the song. Cool? Cool".
Med check yesterday. We're changing one of my doses. If I was taking high blood pressure medicine, I'd be monitoring and taking the full dose to get my numbers where they need to be. I wouldn't take a little dose and say that "It's lower, so it's good enough". So it goes with this med at this time. It will help the anxiety monsters to not be so overwhelming. I like being a present, active participant in my life. So this should be okay, really.
Ox had an anxiety attack over the weekend. I don't remember what we asked him to do, but he just shut down and couldn't be consoled. So I dunked him in the tub long enough to get the sand out from between his toes and off his face, then tucked him into bed with his lovey, stuffy, and bottle, then just sat with him in the dark. No books, no songs, no chatter. Just being there so that he wasn't alone. I told him that I understood and that it's okay. Emi doesn't seem to have anxiety like he and I do.
Last week, freezer waffles were on sale for $1 a box, so I bought some and brought them to work. Now I can have peanut butter toast for breakfast. Life is good.
I still don't want to be at work. I want to be home. I want to read my book, drink tea on the back porch, and work on my sewing/craft projects. I also want to be able to just stare at the wall and not think about things. I don't have many meetings today, which is good and bad. Good, because it means less structured aggravation. Bad, because now I have to fill my time with Useful Things and not stress about everything else.
So it goes.
I didn't clear off the spare bed, but I did work on organizing my sewing table. I got almost all my printed patterns into envelopes and the envelopes sorted into magazine organizers in my cupboard. Bonus: I found my Ina maxi skirt pattern. I immediately cut out two more skirts from it, this time sizing *down* the waist and upper hips, but leaving the fullness from knees down. The fabrics I had earmarked for the skirts are a lighter weight, so I think a smaller size will help them stay up.
I wore one of my recently hemmed skirts to work on Monday. After I wash it, it's going on the pile of fabric to be reused. I'm just not loving it. It's black with multi-bright stripes, but it's so see through that I'm forced to wear a slip under. Not fun. I'll use it for sleeves or trim somewhere that transparency isn't an issue.
Dance class Monday was good. We did drills to ZOMG!FAST song (Ya Tab Tab, for those playing along at home) and our free dance to a slow, floaty song. The choreography is slightly breaking my brain and we're in the section where the drums are running away with everything and the rest of the orchestra is all like "We'll see you at the end of the song. Cool? Cool".
Med check yesterday. We're changing one of my doses. If I was taking high blood pressure medicine, I'd be monitoring and taking the full dose to get my numbers where they need to be. I wouldn't take a little dose and say that "It's lower, so it's good enough". So it goes with this med at this time. It will help the anxiety monsters to not be so overwhelming. I like being a present, active participant in my life. So this should be okay, really.
Ox had an anxiety attack over the weekend. I don't remember what we asked him to do, but he just shut down and couldn't be consoled. So I dunked him in the tub long enough to get the sand out from between his toes and off his face, then tucked him into bed with his lovey, stuffy, and bottle, then just sat with him in the dark. No books, no songs, no chatter. Just being there so that he wasn't alone. I told him that I understood and that it's okay. Emi doesn't seem to have anxiety like he and I do.
Last week, freezer waffles were on sale for $1 a box, so I bought some and brought them to work. Now I can have peanut butter toast for breakfast. Life is good.
I still don't want to be at work. I want to be home. I want to read my book, drink tea on the back porch, and work on my sewing/craft projects. I also want to be able to just stare at the wall and not think about things. I don't have many meetings today, which is good and bad. Good, because it means less structured aggravation. Bad, because now I have to fill my time with Useful Things and not stress about everything else.
So it goes.